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The Silver Lining
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This is my first Twilight Fanfic. I hope you guys like it.......I don't know what the rating should be yet so I'm going to put PG15..:lol:lol: Tell me what you guys think...
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NEW MOON PICTURES By:Holly Cullen
Staring into the eyes of my grim reaper, my undertaker frightened me for the briefest second. Then something warm grabbed my fingers. A hand, but not just any hand- Jake's hand.
I can do this, I realized with a sudden rush of courage. I can do anything with the love of my life solidly at my side.
Jake tightened his hand around mine and I returned the pressure.
We can do this.
My father sat on the piano bench staring at the immense musical object as if it were an irritable grizzly. He’d never looked s-so overwhelmed by the beautiful instrument before, but maybe he’s finally getting tired of it. I doubt it. He loved playing for me and my mother. It was truly one of his better talents.
My mother sat on the couch with Uncle Emmett, calmly. That was a surprise to me. Uncle Emmett usually said something, out of context to me, that made my mother upset. It was hard for her to be in the room more then twenty seconds with him.
Aunt Alice and Aunt Rose were also in the living room, sitting over their drawing desk. From here I could see Aunt Rose sketching a flashy car and Aunt Alice sketching, yet again, another dress. I walked away quickly before she could trap me. I was her life size petite china doll. I hated it.
I walked into the kitchen where, of course, I found a half naked Jake. Instantly an ear to ear smile spread across my face. Jake always made me smile, even if I were upset. His blissful attitude is contagious. I’m happy that out of everyone in the entire world he wanted to be my best friend, but sometimes I wish he could see me as something more than a friend. “Nessie? Are you okay?” My smile had fallen, I felt it. I think about Jake too much these days. He’s only your friend Renesmee, nothing more. After I eternally reprimanded myself I walked over to the table and took my seat across from Jake. I felt his mahogany eyes staring at me, but I wanted to control my expression before I looked over at him.
Grandma Esme brought over a bowl of fruit for me. I hated human food. I preferred the thick, hot, sweetness of human blood over anything, but I rarely got to enjoy luscious human blood. My mother and father prefer I drink ‘animals’ blood; nasty, rusty, animals blood, but even I preferred that over human food. “Ness, you haven’t touched your breakfast. Is something wrong?” Jake asked interrupting my thoughts. I held my hand out offering him a peek into my head, he took it. He laughed as I showed him me running through the woods beating him in his wolf skin. “Oh yeah, well we’ll see about that after school.” I frowned. I’d managed to make myself forget all about school.
I’m so nervous. What if the humans don’t like me? What if I frighten them? I don’t want to go. “Nessie, anyone that doesn’t love you right away is an idiot. You’re going to be a hit.” He made me sound like a television show pilot. He laughed.
Well I’m happy you can find the joke in everything Jacob Black. I thought sarcastically.
“Will you stop worrying so much? Besides, I’ll be there and so will everyone else. We’ll keep you safe. They would have to be nuts to mess with you with us around. So cheer up, Nessie.”
I took my hand from his. I didn’t want him to see that I thought him and everyone else would be wasting there time. Who would come near me? Everyone’s going to look once in my direction and run away.
I picked at my fruit bowl until I heard someone approaching the house. Then I recognized the scent; Uncle Jasper and Grandpa Carlisle. I bounced up and headed towards the front door. Grandma Esme and Aunt Alice followed me as I went through the living room. “Grandpa Carlisle!” I sung as he walked through the door. I wind my arms around his waist and hugged him tight. He chuckled and brushed my hair.
“Well, hello to you, Nessie. I’ve missed you too.” I release him and bounced over to Uncle Jasper. I was suddenly extra excited. “Uncle Jasper,” I wanted it to sound like I was scolding him, but Uncle Jazz was way too powerful. It came out in a high trill giggle. “I’m already happy to see you. You guys shouldn’t go so far next time I missed you a lot.”
“Well, I guess well just have to take you with us next time, and of course you too, Jacob.”
“I’m in.” Jake said from behind me. Everyone laughed.
Uncle Jasper released me and went to Aunt Alice. They didn’t embrace. They just stared at each other. They locked gazes and stared. The way they looked at each other, like no one else was around, like there was nothing that could ever cleave them apart, was astonishing. It felt like the most private thing in the world, I had to look away.
I wish I had someone to look at me like that, but of course I don’t. I don’t know anyone outside of my family and the pack, and even if I did no one would think I was as pretty as my chalk beautiful family. I turned away, feeling horrid.
Why does the one person I wish would look at me like that only want to be my friend? I hate being the ugly one in a house full of beauty. “Renesmee,” My father called. Of course he would be listening to my thoughts, but I don’t want to talk about it. I don’t want to discuss the vast, unfulfilled hole in my chest that I can’t explain. I hate feeling like something is missing all the time. I hate feeling like something is wrong with me because I can’t figure out what that something is. “Renesmee?” My father whispered.
No dad! Please, just don’t.
Before my tears could betray me and before my father could touch me I ran up stairs to my room. I heard a pursuer behind me, but instantly knew it was only Jake. He never enjoyed seeing me suffer, but I wasn’t going to talk to him about my hole either.
He came up behind me, grabbing me by the waist. I struggled feebly to escape his grasp, but he just held on tighter. I touched his arm, showing him me begging him to let me go. I just wanted to be alone. He didn’t release me. Instead he turned me around in his arms and held on tighter. “I will never leave you alone, Renesmee Cullen."He squeezed me, reinforcing his words.
I leaned my head against his bare chest, swimming in his woodsy aroma. No one smelt like Jake, not even the rest of the pack.
I hadn’t realized that my crying had ceased. All I realized, all I felt, all I smelt was Jacob. There was just so much of him. I turned my face in his chest so my lips touched his skin and unthinkingly I puckered my lips and kissed his bare chest. He stiffened and so did i. Nessie! I was instantly rebuking myself. Its Jake, stop it! He doesn't see you like that, no one does.
He leaned away, just slightly, to look at me, but I childishly turned my head. I didn’t want to hear his rejection, let alone see it. “Nessie?” He called softly, probably trying not to hurt my feelings.
I began struggling again, but his arms held me tighter. “Nessie, stop that? Please?” He begged. “Look at me, Nessie?” I’d never heard his voice that low before. “Nessie?” He called again. Tears welled up in my eyes, once again, and I felt ridiculous.
He loosened his left arm from around my waist, and then he completely dropped that arm. He brought his hand up, cupping my jaw, forcing me to face him. “Nessie, please look at me?” I shook my head. And for the first time in my thirteen years of life I was acting my age. “Please?” He begged, and this time his voice sounded husky, like he’d been running or something.
He removed his right arm, but he held it to my left cheek. I could feel his breath on my forehead, and then my nose, and then my lips. Shock ran through my body. He was so close, centimeters. This wasn’t helping me at all. I wanted to kiss him and he wanted to comfort me, as a friend. We wanted different things and being this close to him isn’t right for what he wants. “Jacob?” I mumbled.
“Nessie?” he whispered. The softness of his voice made me open my eyes. I met his brown, mahogany eyes and noticed admittedly how they sparkle. “Nessie?” he whispered, before his lips eased closer to mine. Am I imagining this? Is he really going to k-
“Jacob? Renesmee?” My fathers voice rung from downstairs. Jacob and I jumped apart, both breathing heavily. What was that? Was Jake really going to kiss me? Was I really going to kiss Jake? “It’s almost time for school. We have to leave soon, so hurry.” my father ordered.
I ignored him and stared at Jake, who was fixedly staring at my room door. “Jacob?” I murmured. We have to discuss this, don’t we? Shouldn’t we?
“I should go get changed. We have to get going, school starts soon.” He started off towards the door he never took his eyes off, not even when he talked to me.
“But, Jacob, shouldn’t we talk?”
“Not now, later.” Those were his last words. Then he was gone and I was left, yet again confused. My heart truly ached.
Last edited by felishi (2010-07-29 17:42:03)
You should prolly put the rating in the title.
Other than that it's pretty darn good! lol
You should prolly put the rating in the title.
Other than that it's pretty darn good! lol
I hope you guys like...
I tried plenty of times to talk to Jake before we left for school, in separate cars I might add, but he just blew me off.
I was displeased, but as my father pulled into South Salem High school I became less irritated and more fearful.
This isn’t a movie, I noted. I’m actually going to high school; around human girls who may, or may not be beautiful and mean,
and human boys, lots and lots of human boys, oh, and humans, lots and lots of humans, period, oh, god.
“Renesmee?” My father called. “Stop thinking.” He recommended.
“Edward!” My mother admonished, slapping him on his shoulder. “That sounded ruder than advice. Nessie, what are you thinking, sweetie?”
What aren’t I thinking should have been the question. My father giggled, turning to face his window instead of my glaring mother.
Mom quickly softened her beautiful topaz eyes to face me. “Renesmee, sweetheart, what ever you’re thinking about, weather its school, or something else, just calm down. You are going to be just fine.” She promised.
“What if I’m not, mom?”
“Then you’ll have us.” She answered instantly. “You should believe that life always works it self out in the end.
I took courage from her words. “Okay than, lets go to school.” They both beamed, very pleased.
My father parked in between Uncle Emmett’s jeep and Aunt Alice’s 911 Porsche. Dad glared at my lovely Aunt,
clearly showing his disapproval towards her for not taking his advice about driving the Porsche. He thought that her car was too flashy for this small town.
He fears it’ll bring too much attention to us, attention we don’t need. But Aunt Alice said she foresaw that driving her car would be all right.
I personally think she lied about seeing that, because Jacob road with her and she must have know that diving that car would definitely make
Jacob want to go with her. So, he would have clouded her vision she would have been blinded, she wouldn’t have been able to see anything.
My father knew it too hint the glare. Oh well, no one can tell Alice what to do, she’s a really old women. My father laughed.
Oops don’t tell her that dad.
My father laughed as he got out of the car, opening the door for me, then moving around the car to get the door for my mother.
He was still, such a gentleman.
All my Aunt and Uncles and even Jacob surrounded me as we walked towards the school.
It was so odd how people stared; mouth open, eyes bulging stares. They weren’t even embarrassed about it.
In the movies people usually glanced then quickly tuned away, but not these people.
My father growled softly as he held open the school doors. I looked at him strangely confused by his reaction.
What’s wrong? I asked mentally.
“Everything,” He whispered so fast I barely caught any of it. “I just remembered why I don’t like high school.”
What are they thinking about, dad?
“Nothing of importance.” He lied.
Sure dad. You just wanted to act like a total freak for ‘nothing of importance’. Dad, tell me? I begged.
“It’s nothing Renesmee. Now follow your mother.” I huffed angrily and followed my mother.
As we walked through the halls of our new high school I noticed the following eyes. I was getting extremely nervous again. Usually when I get scared or nervous or panicked I would grab Jacobs hand, but since he’s doing his best to avoid me I grabbed my mothers. She smiled warmly, and rubbed my arm soothingly.
We stepped in to another universe when we entered the front office. Everything was so…pink; the chairs, the counter tops, even the paper perfectly centered in the middle of the counter was pink. Everything was just so pink, like a five year olds first Barbie dream house.
I looked at my dad as he entered with a horrified and overwhelmed look on his face. His expression eased to amusement when he caught a glimpse of my face. “Ahem.” My father cleared his throat, trying to get the attention of the short, silver haired, elderly sectary.
She, unlike everyone else, didn’t notice our silent entrance. Impatiently my fathered cleared his throat again. This time she heard him. “Hello,” my father greeted in a weird, soft, chime tone. “My name is, Edward Cullen, this is my family, we’re new.”
The brown eyes, silver haired women just stared at my father. He put on a very convincing confused expression, as if he didn’t know why she wasn’t speaking. But of course he knew better then anyone.
I wonder what she’s thinking. What ever it is it’s making my father uncomfortable. He started shifting his weight from foot to foot. “I see you can still get old ladies worked up, hun, Eddie?” Uncle Emmett whispered too low for the human lady to hear. My father let out a lower hiss and my mother reached back and slapped Uncle Emmett in the gut.
“Right!” The lady spoke coming back from the dead. “I’ve been waiting for you all to arrive all morning. So who’s who?” She asked finally looking beyond my father.
My father stepped aside, exposing the rest of us. “These are Rosalie and Jasper Hale. He’s Jacob Blake, again, I’m Edward, this Alice, and his name is Emmett, we’re the Cullen’s, and last but never least, this is Isabella and Renesmee Dwyer.” Dwyer? I don’t understand why we couldn’t just go with moms name before she was a Cullen, Swan, its prettier, Dwyer? Or why not dads last name when he was human, Masen, that’s even better then Dwyer. Sorry grandma Renee, but Dwyer, really?
The short lady smiled at each of us and then she handed my father a couple sheets of pink paper. My father turned, gesturing towards the door. We filled out of the obsessively pink universe, back into the planet of bulging eyes. It seemed like everyone wanted to see us. We were the new and exciting gossip. I turned to face my father as he talked. “Rose, Emmett, Jasper. Here are your schedules.”
“Can you believe I have to be a senior again? Let’s go Em.” Uncle Emmett, Jasper and Aunt Rose kissed my forehead and headed off down the hall. I watched them disappear around the corner with the little calm I had left.
I squeezed my mother’s fingers and she smiled down at me. “Jacob?” My father called. “Here are yours and Renesmee’s schedules. It looks as if you two have a nice amount of classes together. Nessie?” My father called, turning to me. “I’ll be listening for you. If anything happens I’ll be right there. Have a good day sweetheart. And Jacob, watch out for her.” I frowned slightly annoyed. I don’t want Jacob to watch out for me. I don’t want Jacob to do anything for me.
I can take care of myself dad.
My father only smiled before leaning down to kiss my forehead and giving Jacob a light punch in the arm. My mother hugged me and kissed Jacobs cheek. I watched as they disappeared in the same spot as the others. “Nessie?” Aunt Alice called. “I can’t see much, but I think you’re going to have a wonderful day, you too Jake, oh…and Nessie, watch where you walk.” She smiled kissing both of my cheeks and very gracefully fluttered after my parents.
Seconds after Aunt Alice disappeared Jacob Black made an annoying ‘Ahem’ in his throat. Reluctantly I turned to face him, but I was very careful not to look in his eyes. “It seems we have every other class together. Are you ready for History?” I didn’t respond to him. I simply held my hand out for my schedule. He handed it over wordlessly. With one glimpse at it I started off down the hall. He huffed, but followed.
I wish I had my parents near me. I was getting extremely nervous again and I forbid myself to cling to Jacob Black.
As we turned a corner I was half knocked off my feet by a slick haired, pale creature. Instinctively I wanted to jump in the air and land on the tip of my toes, but I was playing a role today. I was playing the part of Renesmee Dwyer, a weak and frail human with no inhuman powers and no inhuman reflexes. So quickly I thought about what my character would do at this point. So very annoyed, I feel back. That’s why I said half way. Because when I decided to fall back Jacob black caught me. Once he sat me on my feet again I wiggled myself out of his grasp.
I tried my hardest at pretending to be a weak human girl, as I helped the pale boy up, but he didn’t look up to my offered hand. He didn’t even notice me yet. Of course he wouldn’t, no one would. “Are you okay” He asked as he scrambled on the ground with his papers.
“Yes,” I murmured. “I’m fine. Are you okay?” He looked up quickly as I finished speaking. His clear blue eyes were beautiful. They admittedly reminded me of Egyptian blue and they were staring at me in…awe? He stood, holding my gaze and abandoning his things on the ground.
“Hi,” He breathed, as he held his hand out to me. “My name is, Johnny. Johnny Robertson. You are?” Still staring into his eyes I grabbed his hand and shook it. There was a shock of some kind and he winced.
“R-Renesmee Dwyer, it’s nice to meet you, Johnny.” He smiled as my voice flowed through the air. Or maybe he smiled at how I stumbled over my own name. His smile was genuinely sexy, and a little dazzling. His sleek chin length black hair was covering his left eye and he, very seductively pushed it behind his ear. “Oh,” I breathed. This is what Alice was talking about. I was wondering what she meant at the end there, but now I know.
He wasn’t the typical hottie that I’ve seen on television, but he was sexy. The sexiest person I’ve seen besides… “Oh, this is, Jacob Black. ” Behind me I heard Jacob growl.
Last edited by felishi (2009-10-18 19:11:24)
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Great chappy!! Loved it!!!
Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!And so i shall continue:D
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The boy, Johnny, eyes left mine for the first time and for the first time he looked unease. He held his hand out to the massive monster known, as Jacob Black and Jacob took it with a grim smile on his lips. Instantly the boy recoiled from Jacobs grasp. Jacob let his hand go and the boy clenched and unclenched his fist. “You have a pretty sturdy shake there Jacob.”
“I work out.” Jacob retorted.
“I can feel that. So,” The boy said turning back to me. “You must be the new girl? Where’s your first class?” I handed him my schedule in complete awe of his human beauty. He smiled taking the pink paper and biting his lip as he mauled over the list of classes. “Well, it seems you and I have first and seventh period together. If you wait a minute while I get my things I’ll show you the way to class. You’re going the wrong way this way.”
“I’d like that, thank you. We’ll wait for you.” He glanced once more at Jacob picking up on the ‘we’.
He bent down to get his things and I helped. It was only right. He was taking the time out to help us. “So, where did you guys come from?” Oh, wow. I don’t really remember the story anymore. Should I say Forks, or should I keep it to the state?
“Washington.” Jacob spoke from on side of me now. I silently thanked him, but I most certainly was not going to let him know that.
“Cool. I only visited there a few times. My family likes to vacation down in Port Angeles. But every few days they would drive down to that beach near Forks.”
“You know it?” He asked excitement leaking in his voice. I looked over at Jacob who was looking nervously at me.
Jacob embodies everything good about first beach; he’s the cliff diving, he’s the warm sand on the beach, he’s the people, he’s the sun that beams over head, he’s the late night motorcycle rides. But the boy that’s on side of me, the boy that’s been ignoring me all day isn’t any of those things anymore.
Still looking at Jacob I answered Johnny.
“Not anymore.” I thought I knew first beach like the back of my hand, but first beach is a jerk.
Johnny walked in our History class headed for one of seven tables that seated five. I followed him and Jacob followed me. But some how Jacob managed to beat me to the table.
Both of them holding a seat that would most likely keep the other one away from me. I rejected both offers and took the single seat in between the two pulled out for me. This turned out to be a bad idea. Both Jacob and Johnny sat on either side of me. Can this get any more awkward?
Like always I thought too soon. My new peers begin filling into the classroom, every one of them taking in Jacob and I as they entered. Some of them looked panicky when they took in the massive boy beside me and some of them, girls, looked overly excited when they took Jacob in. Something boiled in me and instinctively I wanted to grab Jacob’s hand and squeeze tight. Let all of them know that he was my Jacob, but instincts are flawed. Touching him would mean that I forgive him for blowing me off and I haven’t. So reluctantly I slightly wrapped my arms around my frame holding on tight.
“Johnny!” A feminine voice sung. I look over just in time to see a girl with auburn hair walk across the room and abruptly kiss Johnny full on the lips. Oddly enough, or maybe not so odd, I felt nothing.
Johnny pulled her off wiping his lips with the back of his hand. “God, Suzanne, what are you doing?” she smiled down at him, undisturbed by his scolding tone.
“I’m kissing my boyfriend.” She looked over at me saying this.
I was puzzled. What do I care if he’s her boyfriend? Of course I heard her infliction. She’s warning me.
A low growl formed in Jacob’s chest. He obviously heard her implication as well. “Your ex -boyfriend.” Johnny snapped pulling her attention to him. “Suzanne we can’t keep doing this. I broke up with you three times this week. You can’t keep kissing me at free will. I can’t be with you anymore Suzanne, it’s over, again.” She stared at him uncomprehendingly. Then she stood from his lap and walked away headed for the closest five seat table to the door. Johnny watched her take her seat then he turned towards me, shaking his head, but smiling apologetically. “I’m sorry,” He apologized unnecessarily.
“It’s fine Johnny.”
“Suzanne and I dated for about two years. Then a about a month ago she cheated on me with my best friend. I caught them together outside of a party in my car. I don’t think it was their first indiscretion. Just the first time I caught them. I broke up with her, but as you can see my words went through one ear and out the other. I wish she would leave me alone. There’s nothing I can do for her anymore.” He seemed sad by that.
But he was only trying to protect his heart and I could see that. And I feel for him, because I know how it is to love someone and have that person hurt you repeatedly. But at least he had her for however short the time was. Johnny is a good guy. He reminds me of an actor that I enjoy Dustin Milligan, yes, not facially, of course not, Johnny was much more pleasing to the eye, but the way Dustin Milligan portrayed his role in that movie, In the Land of Women. He was the all around sweet guy. Johnny is going to get the girl in the end, but he needs the right girl. But what girl is that?
One thing is sure I think Suzanne got the message this time. She didn’t bother Johnny anymore during the period and Johnny liked that.
Class went by pretty slow after that. Our teacher, a Mr. Night was hoot. After he so routinely made Jacob and I introduce ourselves, he taught history through song; songs for people not in high school. Maybe a two year old, but he was hilarious.
After introducing himself Jacob just sat quietly beside me, not even trying to make amends. So I ignored him further and angled my body towards Johnny.
After class was over Johnny offered to walk me to my next class which was French.
This class was a hoot as well. I, like my father, my Aunts, my uncles, and my grandparents, my mother is still learning, speak perfect French. “Ms. Dwyer? One, two, three, and four?”
“Un, Deux, Trois, Quatre.”
“Oui…Ms. Dwyer. Vous devriez penser à joindre le club français.” (You should think about joining the French Club.)
“Je considérerai lui, mais I don' ; t veulent pousser n'importe quoi juste pourtant je le gardera dans l'esprit cependant pour vous remercier M. Adrien.”
(I will consider it, but I don't want to push anything just yet. I will keep it in mind though. Thank you Mr. Adrien.)
It was in this class that I met Aurora. She was amazing and beautiful. Not one inch of mean lives in her body and she wasn’t afraid to talk to me. I’d accidentally sat in her seat, not minding she sat in the seat beside me. “How do you like South Salem High so far?”
“It’s awkward. Everyone’s staring at me” I motioned towards the people around us and sure enough, as if she needed proof, they were staring. ‘But no ones actually come up and talk to me, except you, oh and Johnny Robertson. I had him first period.” Her eyes did some sort of cross between bulging and rolling in the back of her head, I sniffled a giggle.
“Johnny Robertson? Oh, my, god!” she said his name like a stalking teenage girl after her favorite famous person. Is he famous? I doubt it. “And you’re sure he talked to you?”
“Yeah, he sort of ran into me in the hallway, literally.”
“He’s so hot; those eyes, those lips, that hair, his body. Have you seen his body? Oh, my god.” This time I couldn’t hold the giggles. They escaped audibly and she couldn’t help but join me. We were being hushed in French, which only made us laugh more.
That class was over far too soon.
When Aurora and I walked into the hallway I noticed the two very distinct male figures waiting. Both Jacob and Johnny were leaning against a few nearby lockers.
Aurora parted from me before I could reach them. I was silent as I approached. I’m sure anyone could, but right now I was the only one that could feel the fight for dominance between the two boys. Jacob of course was winning.
I was walked to my next class in silence. Johnny parted at the door and Jacob and I entered. There I found my father in the back row. He smiled up at me as I walked over to him. What class am I in? It was a personal thought, but of course not around my father. “College Algebra, they were offering it and your mother and I thought you would enjoy the challenge. How has your day been so far?” I sat next to him and Jacob sat next to me. I didn’t want Jacob to sit next to me. I turned noticing my father’s cocked eyebrow as I did, but he had no remark about my thought.
“It’s been a day.” He smiled as I touched his hand, showing him the people still staring at me, the people I met. He growled softly as I lingered on Johnny and the way he looked at me. I didn’t realize it before, but there was admiration in his gaze. He looked at me, he really looked at me. But it wasn’t how uncle Jasper looked at my aunt, or even how my father looked at my mother. It was something new, it had-potential.
“No Renesmee.” My father said in such away I almost didn’t press it, almost.
“Why not? He’s nice to me.”
“He?” Jacob asked interrupting rudely. “Who are you talking about?”
“None of you business, Jacob.” I murmured sourly. I heard him growl, but he butted out.
“Renesmee, It’s not right to mess with some one like that. You may hurt him. You don’t know how it is to have-no, not have- to be. You don’t know how it is to be emotionally close to a human like that.”
You did it to mom. Why can’t I have the same happiness?
“That’s why, because I did do it to your mother. I know the pain we both endured for our union. I don’t want you to go through that.”
If I could possibly have someone that makes me as happy as mom makes you, why would you want to begrudge me that?
“Ness,” He paused, eyes unfocusing. They're coming, our new peers. He spoke quickly. “I don’t want to begrudge you anything, but I don’t think it will work out with him, especially if you’re doing it for the wrong reasons.” With that he directed a pointed glace in Jacobs direction. My breath Caught
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I looked into my fathers topaz eyes startled. You know about that?
“I’m your father, I know everything. Now promise me you won’t mess with that poor kid.”
I can’t promise you that dad.
“Why in heavens not, Renesmee?”
I still want to be his friend. He was really nice to me. So, you know about Jake and, well, I hesitated.
It’s not everyday a girl talk to her father about a guy.
“Don’t you object?” He smiled, ruffling my hair.
“Of course I object. But you are at that age where you’re curious about the op-”
“Dad!” I hissed. I did not want to hear my father say the word sex to me. Matter of fact, I’m done with this conversation.
For the rest of the class period I thought of random things; location, rubber bands, world leaders,
anything to not think about how close I really was to Jacob. His left elbow rested lightly on my right arm
and it took everything I had to resist the urge to bury my body in his side, to let him smoother me in his
iron tight grasp.
I was more than appreciative when the bell wrong dismissing us. My father left me with Jacob as he went
to find my mothers class. I can’t believe its lunch already.
Jacob and I found the massive lunch room together. We were both flabbergasted as we entered the
impressive two story lunchroom. I never thought everything in the school would have two story’s.
“Renesmee?” Aunt Rose called from across the massive lunch room. I turned to find my family sitting
at a table close to an exit, but far from a window, perfect.
I walked over excited. I finally have something with all of them. “Hey guys.” I greeted taking my seat
next to Aunt Alice. Jacob, yet again, took the seat next to me.
“How has your day been, Nessie?” Aunt Alice asked. Everyone was instantly curious, leaning in closer
to hear my answer.
“Fine, although I could really go without the staring."
“It’ll lighten up shorty. They’ll get use to you being here everyday… So what about you, Jacob.
How has your day been?”
Jacob glanced at me so fast I wasn’t sure he’d really done it. “It’s been a paradox.”
I stared at him nonchalantly before he turned towards me. What does he mean ‘paradox’?
How has his day been a contradiction in any way?
Unintentionally I found myself caught up in his brown, turning black as coal, chocolate eyes.
For a moment I thought I really saw why he’s been in a paradox and something deep inside,
but fiercely pushing its way to the surface, told me to grab Jakes hand and hold on for dear life,
but again I fought against that urge.
The only urge I couldn’t seem to fight against was the one that slowly begin to draw our faces
towards each other. I was unable to stop moving and unconsciously he seemed to be in the
same predicament. “Ahem!” my mother cleared her throat loudly allowing her sweet breath to
enter my nose. It distracted me instantly as it took place of Jacob’s aroma. I closed my eyes,
releasing him from my gaze.
Was I really going to kiss him? Here, in front of my entire family plus a thousand? I leaned as
far away, from him, as the small space allowed. No more mistakes Renesmee. Stay away
from Jacob Black.
My mother and father sat across from me. Of course they were all over each other. I wanted to vomit.
Get a room. I screamed mentally. My father glared at me from the corner of his eye.
I smelt the all too familiar human scent before I even noticed my father and Jacob and my uncles stiffen.
I turned with the best smile I could compose at the moment. I felt it reach across my face but I knew
it didn’t touch my chocolate eyes.
I watched as Johnny nervously made his way over to our table. This is the perfect opportunity to mess with…everyone. I would love to see my Aunt Roses face if Johnny asks to sit at the table and Jacobs
face if Johnny sits next to him. And my dads face when Johnny looks at me with that weird look again.
So, dad? I called getting his attention. If I stay away from him, what’s stopping
him from staying away from me? with narrowed eyes he grimaced.
“Me, when I ground you.” He retorted. I looked at him, slightly startled.
You wouldn’t! I challenged.
“The beauty of being a parent say’s I can. Don’t test me Renesmee Cullen.”
“What are you two talking about, Edward?” My mother asked, but there was no time to answer her.
“Renesmee?” Johnny called as he finally reached our table.
I was frozen, glaring at my father for a fraction of a second before I turned to Johnny with the
brightest smile I could manage.
I watched as his Egyptian blue eyes glanced over my beautiful family. Lingering on their topaz
eyes and their perfect noses and mouths, and skin…I felt inadequate.
“Can we help you?” My perfect Aunt Rose asked. Rose was as perfect as perfect gets. She was the
most beautiful women anyone, immortal or mortal has ever laid their eyes on. She was a goddess,
especially next to me, plain Jane. I shivered at the name. I was no Jane. Behind me my father sighed
Johnny looked astounded by the sound of my Aunts angel like voice. It made his heart beat increase,
and it also made him stutter. “Umm…R-Re-nessme? I was wondering if you would like to join me for lunch?” I watched as the excitement in his eyes turned into hope and burned for a ‘yes’. But if I proceed with
my plan to use him, if I start it right now, then I will be ‘grounded’ for the first time in my life.
The word personally sounded amusing.
I looked away from Johnny, looking at my father. He confirmed my grounding with a quick nod. Then i looked at Jacob's beautiful face and thought of the word 'grounded' once more.
I smiled wickedly and turned back to Johnny. Start my punishment dad. I don’t care.
As soon as I opened my mouth the sweet husky voice of Jacob spoke. “No,” He growled. “she’s sitting with
her family.” I smiled to myself. Happy that he cared enough to want me around, but I also frowned to myself. Who is he to answer for me?
“Oh, maybe next time then. See you ar-”
“No, Johnny wait?”
“Nessie!” My father hissed. I turned on Jacob and glared. I made sure I pronounced each of my words carefully, angrily, with venom.
“I can accept or turn down invites on my own Jacob Black. I do not need you to do it for me.
I would love to sit with you Johnny. Where is your table?”
“Renesmee!” Jacob hissed under his breath.
I watched as Johnny beamed and pointed to the only table that actually touched a window.
I beamed back, grabbing my things and heading to another table with a human boy at my side.
I could feel the stares, not only from my family, but from the entire room, this only made me beam bigger.
“So Renesmee, why don’t you tell me about yourself? What are your likes and dislikes,
stuff on the lines of that?”
How does one compose a list of dislikes and likes if one hasn’t experienced enough? I only
like things I know, but now, looking at things I’ve missed out on, I’m not sure if I like the things I know.
I wish I knew more. My resolve took two second of deliberation. Johnny was just beginning to wait for
an answer to his question. “I like running, and swimming and playing baseball with my family. That’s
actually pretty fun to watch. I hu-hike all the time when the weather is perfect. I like playing the piano,
my dad taught me.”
“Really?” He asked interested.
I nodded my head. “I’m better then he is now, but I’ve taken an interest in guitar so piano is kind of
behind me, but it will always be special to me because of my dad.”
“What are your dislikes?” He seemed overly interested in this plain trivia, but I don’t want to go back
over to my family just yet. I can still feel their eyes burning into my back. I don’t want to face that wrath
until absolutely necessary.
“I dislike playing down my intelligence for others. I dislike people who lie. I dislike charades and I seem
to dislike that tray of food you’re eating.” He laughed and took a big gulp of the vomit looking human food. It smelt like animal trails. When he swallowed he continued questioning me.
“What kinds of foods do you like?” He asked shyly. His shyness made me blush. A human has never
made me blush before.
“I like fruit, any fruit. I like ice scream, sherbet is my favorite with strawberry closely in second.
I like rare meat, steak, burgers anything and lastly, I love, love, love eggs. That’s it, I don’t have a taste for anything else.” Except blood, but you don’t need to know anything about that. Trust me weak little human.
“I don’t think you can make all of that out of one dinner, but maybe one day I’ll try.” My cheeks
burnt crazy with heat. A human actually made me blush. Jacob is the only one who has ever made me blush. Johnny smiled and I had to look down to refocus.
“So,” he said then paused. I looked up out of sheer curiosity. He didn’t feel compel to continue.
“So what?” I asked impatiently.
“Well, I was just wondering, you know, if you were dating that Jacob guy?” Behind me I heard,
not just six vampires stop breathing, but one big wolf as well. I glanced back at my family, only
to meet Jacob’s curious eyes. I turned away quickly.
“No.” I answered honestly.
“Do you like him?” Why does he want to know this? This is an uncomfortable gray area that I do not enjoy speaking of especially not with a guy I’ve just met, a corner.
“Jacob, doesn’t see anyone like that. He likes being alone.” Behind me I heard a bitter
chuckled, but I ignored it. My answers seemed to make Johnny smile.
“So, you’re not dating him, but you two seem so close. He’s been by your side all day, more so
than the rest of your family.”
“Really?” Was that weird to him? Jake has always been around me more then the rest of my family has.
“So you’re not dating him? Are you dating anyone else? No. Is there a reason behind that?”
I smiled amused. There is a huge reason behind it, two actually. One, Jacob is such an idiot that
he doesn’t see me pine for him, even in sleep. And two is if I date anyone else I’d want to eat them.
It was so odd how when I thought about eating a human Johnny’s aroma swept over me.
He smelt sweet, thick, tasty and that was just his blood. He was wearing cologne that brought his
smell out more. It was a rich, musky smell; sweet and musky, yum.
How could I have not noticed his scent before? Then I realized that every time I’d see him I’d been
with Jacob, so of course I didn’t notice before. Jake's scent beat out anyone’s scent. I always chose
him over everyone. He smells better then any sweet human, but I bet Johnny taste really good.
“Renesmee?” A voice hissed from behind me. I instantly snapped out of my trance, not realizing that i was
inclined over the table, closer to Johnny. He was even inclined towards me. If I didn’t know any better
I could have sworn his lips were puckered. He was ready to kiss me. “Renesmee?” The voice called again.
The voice was of course familiar, but I ignored him. That would have been interesting, my first real kiss.
“Renesmee!” my father hissed more furious then ever. He grabbed my upper arm and hauled me out
of the cafeteria. I noticed Johnny’s sadden and slightly frustrated face and I also noticed my mother
and Jacob get up and follow after us at human speed. “Renesmee Carlie Cullen, I swear to the moon.”
We walked out- well I was dragged out- of the cafeteria doors into the forsaken hallway. “I didn’t do
anything wrong dad. What are you doing?” He shoved me against the wall and began pacing in front
of me using inhuman speed.
What are you doing? They could have cameras, or someone could be watching. Stop it dad!
“Have you lost your mind Renesmee?” He snarled. I winced away from his enraged tone. He’d never
yelled at me for anything, ever. For the first time in my life I was truly scared of my father.
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YAY!!! Go Eddie Boo!!
Stupid stupid stupid Renesmee! grrrrr she is such an idiot
Gr8 story Felishi its awsum
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YAY!!! Go Eddie Boo!!
Stupid stupid stupid Renesmee! grrrrr she is such an idiot
Gr8 story Felishi its awsum
Thank you!!!! I hope you enjoy the upcoming chapters.
New chapter coming soon, sorry that this isn't it..probably tonight though...sorry that i've been taking forever with this one...
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“This frightens you?” He asked hysterically, with grim amusement. “You should be more frightened by giving away our secret. I told you not to go over there. I told you not to do the things you were thinking.” He paused just as my mother and Jacob came out the door. Both rushed to our sides, both internally and externally confused. My father continued, still pacing at his inhuman speed. “And yet you disobeyed me and do them anyway. Did you see yourself in there? Of course you didn’t, because your vampire side consumed you completely.”
It was only for a minute. I cried back mentally defending myself. I snapped out of it.
“You snapped out of it because I came over there and pulled you out of it. I heard what you were thinking. I saw what you were doing, if I wouldn’t have come over there and snapped you out of it who knows what you would have done. You acted immaturely." He paused for another second then added on as a last thought. “Of course you acted immaturely. You’re only a child. I knew this was a bad idea, but no. ‘She’ll be fine Edward. She can handle herself’.”
He mimicked my mother’s perfect wind chime voice as if she wasn’t even sanding there. She snapped and so did I when it dawned on me what he’d just called me. “Edward!” my mother hissed. While at the same time I screamed, ‘I am not a child Dad!’ at my father.
I instantly noticed Jacob’s warm hands pulling me from the lockers to stand beside his tall, massive frame.
For a second I forgot about everything in the world, everything but his hands touching my bare arms. My skin tingled under his warm touch. I wondered, irrelevant to my current situation, if he could feel the tingle as well, or if he could feel the link, the force, the pull that’s doing exactly what the word say’s, pulling me to him. I was interrupted by my mothers screeching hisses. “It was a good idea, Edward. We can’t keep her hidden from the world, locked up like a deep dark secret in the basement. She has to get out there and experience the world for herself.” I silently thank my mother, who always, no mater what, had my back.
“And I’m not a child.” I threw in for her, feeding the fire. She was on a roll.
“And she is not a child. Thank you Renesmee, but I can take care of this.” She turned back to my, no longer pacing, father who was glaring punishments at me. “She’s a young lady, a teenager tectonically, stop being so overprotective, Edward. Give her a fair chance.”
“You didn’t hear her Bella.” My father hissed right back, no longer staring at me, but at my mother. “She was thinking about his aroma. She was leaned in towards him. She could have hurt him, or worse.” I winced, again. But this time I had Jacob. He wrapped a comforting arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him. I went, very willingly.
“I wasn’t going to hurt him.” I whispered in a small voice. “It was only for one-”
“That’s all it takes Renesmee.” My father retorted in a tired voice. “One minute, one second, one moment to ruin the rest of your life. We have to stay inconspicuous for a reason. You’re too young for this.”
My mother ghost forwards and slid her hand on my fathers’ shoulders, stopping him from unconsciously pacing. “Edward, we should talk about this at home. Let her finish the rest of her day. Jacob has two more classes with her and I have sixth period with her. We’ll listen to her in her fourth period. If anything goes wrong we’ll hear, Edward?” My mother called again, because before she could finish he was shaking his head. He clearly disapproved of this plan.
“She can’t handle this Bella. This is a bad idea.” His words triggered something in me, probably stupidity and I wanted to defend myself. They were talking about me as if I wasn’t even here. And I don’t like it. I slightly pulled away from Jacob’s burning body and squared my shoulders. It’s time I put my foot down.
“I’m staying, dad.” I can do this. I was doing just fine until now. And even then I was some what in control. I’ll just hold my breath around him, but I want to finish this day if you are planning on me never coming back. I want to goodbye to the people I’ve met.” He sighed frustrated, turning to my mother. She slid her hand up his neck and landed on his cheek and as if compelled, as if forced, he relaxed.
“Give her this Edward. Give her this day.” He took a deep breath, agreeing.
Thank you daddy.
“Thank you Edward.”
“She’s still grounded. You’re still grounded.” He said turning to face me. “I told you not to do it, yet you disobeyed my wishes. You’re grounded. We’ll discus that at home. Get to class. Jacob get her to class.” Jacob nodded taking his hand from my waist and grabbing my hand. He was so…beautiful.
I’ve never in my life been grounded, but looking a Jacob…I’ve never wanted something so much. Being grounded means time inside with Jacob for however long.
Jacob continued to hold my hand as he dragged me to my English class. He didn’t speak and neither did I.
I marveled in his warmth, his smell, but I’m still angry with him. Why won’t he talk to me? Or why won’t he just kiss me already? On purpose I let images of him and me running and me jumping onto his back flow through my mind into his. I let his see himself and me watching a movie together, us sitting on the couch, my head in his chest, his arms wrapped around me, holding me protecting me. I glanced up at him from under my lashes and from the corner of his eyes I saw him looking at me. “I don’t understand. Do you want to go running or do you want to watch a movie?” I sighed, giving up.
I wiggled my hand out of his grasp and I could have sworn he was a tad bit reluctant to let go, but he did let me go.
He missed the entire point of my picture show. During both occasions we were close. When I was on his back, my chest rubbed against his furry back, my fingers knotted tightly in his fur, and my face buried deep in his shoulders. And on the couch my head was in his chest, his arms were wrapped around me tight, protecting me and I was happy. How could he miss that?
We were in front of my English class and I was heading in, but Jacob grabbed my arm. “Nessie, talk to me? Why are you so upset? What’s wrong, what did I do?” I shook my head, not meeting his eyes. I don’t want to do this here.
“I’m fine Jacob. I’m not upset. I have to go in. you should get going too. See you after class, bye.” I walked into my class and looked for a seat. Behind me I heard him mumble something about lying and how he knew better. How he knew me. If only I could truly believe he knew me.
Sometime I hate feeling how I do for Jacob. It hurts to know that he will never return my feelings. He just wants to be my best friend forever. Well news flash friends forever just won’t work for me. I want him, all of him to be with me, all of me. Why can’t he see that?
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